to us girls who used to be
his #1.
Who waited all night for
him to call.. only to be
disappointed.

The one who made it through
the bitter break-up, dried your
own tears, and moved on with
your life.. only yo have him
come back like nothing
happened..

To us girls who took him
back, hoping this time, he'd
be different.. hoping that
maybe people really do
change..

To us who listened to our
friends call us stupid for thinking
about giving him another chance.
Us who caught shit from our
parents and even snuck around to
see him once in a while..

Us who went trough the
"friend" stage again with no
fights at all.
To us who thought we'd stay
friends but ended up falling in
love with him all over again..

Here's to the ones who
believed the things he said, sat
around all over again waiting
for a phone call that night
come in a couple hours or a
few days...

Here's for the tears cried and dried
all over again.
We wanted so desperately to believe
that he was really busy
he couldn't possibly call us at that
moment,
or even that he fell asleep early.

We trained ourselves to believe the lies
because we wanted to believe we had
found "the one" for us.
We learned to settle for someone
who didn't treat us the way we should
be treated.

We just couldn't believe that
he could do this to us again.

This is for those great girls,
who loved him more than words can say,
and took him back no matter what
happened last time because they couldn't bear to look back
on their lives one day
and wonder "what if".

Here's for the ones who did their hair
and make up
and put on their prettiest earrings,
only to hear him say that he couldn't see us today.
The ones who never believed it
when people told us there might be
someone else.

The one who hoped he would realize
that he deserved better, that he
deserved us.
When he said that he loved you,
but he was in love with her, he didn't mean it.

This is for the ones that held on to
something
that was never there to begin with.
This is for us girls,
who somehow managed to get him to
forget about her,
and got him to tell us that he was in love
with us again.

only to have him tell us
three weeks later that
"things were going too fast,
he needs time." :x

Here's to the girls who couldn't cry
to their friends
because of how stupid they felt.
The ones who held it all in
when things came crumbling to
pieces again.

This is for the ones who
couldn't bear
to even tell their mom what
was going on, for fear of
an "I told you so."

The ones that could just
tell that had made a mistake
ever allowing him
into their hearts and their
dreams again.

We knew that we deserved better the
entire time, that we deserved a guy who
would call when he said he was going
to, one that would come see us
whenever he got the chance, one that
would really care about us. We just
wanted the one that we loved like that.

Here's for the ones that
finally realized
that he never gave a shit about them.
Here's for the time that he
broke your heart again.

This is for those confusing days,
when you miss him,
and want nothing more than to
hear his voice.
or feel his arms around your waist.

Stay strong,
and remember that relationships are
like broken glass, sometimes it's better to leave it alone rather than try to put the pieces back together and get hurt.

When "you song" comes on the radio,
turn the station.
When the day comes
that he realizes what a mistake he made and tries calling, turn your phone off.
when he tries coming to your house
don't answer the door.

Think of the broken promises,
and the lies,
the manipulation and the tears,
the wasted moments
and staying up all night wondering
where the hell he was.

Think of how your heart used to jump
when your phone would vibrate in the
middle of the night,
and how it fell to your stomach when you saw it wasn't him,
and realized that once again,
he hadn't called when he said he was going to.

It's gonna hurt like hell,
and it's going to need
time to heal,
but the point is,
it will heal.

This is for those girls,
who fell back in live
with their ex,
only to get hurt all over again... :x

                  

 

I'm back from hiatus. If you ever notice the cobweb on my page before this post. Nilinis ko muna sya! Haha.. Yung pag post ko lang naman ng entry ang na-miss ko dito sa Xanga eh, sige na nga isama na rin nating yung mga wonderful people na ka-chikahan ko dito.. As a web friend sasabihin ko sa inyo kung bakit bihira na lang akong mag post dito. Kasi po meron akong blog site na nakita and I realy want it to be private. Why?! Kasi medyo may mga secrets ako na hindi ko mai-post dito sa Xanga. The fear of "baka mabasa nya" ang post ko na yun - sasabog ang mundo ko! Haha. So, dun sa page ko na yun ko nilalagay lahat ng asar, inis, inlove moments ko with HiM.

Bout the photo above... Mga boring moments post namin yan nung naka-confine si Ate sa Asian. Hayz, actually last night lang kami discharge. WoW! One of these days I'm dreaming na employee na rin ako ng isang prestigious na hospital tulad ng Asia. [dream on]

Since umuwi sila Ate here sa Pinas.. Tinamad na kung mag-post. I don't think its proper na ilagay sa web ung condition nya e.. Para kasing sasabog yung emotions ko kung ishinare ko dito yung about sa situation nya e. Anyways, she's doing fine right now. I think so. [in a Nurse point of view]

Ayun, ano pa ba ang pwedeng sabihin?! Ammm ayun invisible nanaman uli sya.

Ay oo nga pala. Na badtrip ako lastnight ng isang guy sa YM. Itago na lang natin sya sa pangalang RICHARD DROSS MERCADO.If ever na mababasa mo to boy. Im not that shy that I mentioned your name here. Wanna know why?! It's because.. I find it annoying na i-PM mo ang Ex na niligawan mo to as kamusta na sya... And all of us sudden bigla kang mag G-GTG kasi ihahatid mo ang ASAWA Mo sa work nya?!!? Punnyeta!! Bitter ka pa ba sakin?! Coz hello.. It's not proper to say it. Nag GTG ka na lang sana. Kasi parang naging Desperado ka lang sa isip ko. Were not a true friend right?! Yes.. So please, stop annoying me.

Just leave your Happy life. I'll be fine.

 

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

ME?! ako nga ba? Sannnnnnnnnnnaaa!

Kagabi - napanaginipan ko. "Tayo" na raw. Ramdam na ramdam ko... Masaya "tayo". Nung na-alimpungatan nga ako. Naka smile pa pala ako. Haha.. Napaka silly. Pero alam mo? Sana hindi na lang ako nagising. Kasi in my dreams hindi tayo mag-*********. Kundi ikaw daw ang SOULMATE ko.

Puttekk.. Pinaglalaruan nanaman ako ng tadhana. Ang init na nga e!! Arghhh

Current mood:     Durog-durog
Current music:     Why can't it be?!


P.S.
When I was about to finish writing.. My computer shut down. And, yes! You get it right... For me to be able to post this one - I started again from scratch. NApa-isip tuloy ako... Kung kailangan ko pa bang i-post to. Ayun, I decided to post it anyway. =X TRAGIC e ;)
habang buhay nalang ako sigurong ganito.....

nagmamahal ng lubos ngunit kahit anong mangyari wala pa rin...wala pa ring magmamahal....

hindi naman ako demanding...okey lang kahit hindi ako mahalin ng mga taong mahal ko basta masaya sila at anjan pa rin sila sa buhay ko...

minsan alam kong ayokong mahalin ako ng ibang tao kasi alam kong masasaktan ko lang sila kasi mahal ko din sila at ayoko siyempre na nakikita silang nasasaktan...ang labo ko noh?!

ngayon araw kasi, medyo depressed o medyo praning ako...

mali pala un...

pareho akong depressed at praning...

ang rason...depressed kasi may gusto akong kalimutan pero ayaw iwanan...pero mawawala na...hindi ung nararamdaman ko kundi ung tao...kaya lalong masakit...di ko pa kayang mawala siya...

sori kung di ko talaga masabi kung sino kasi hindi rin ako handang sabihin at ipaalam un... =X

kanina...bigla akong nag-hang...tapos...napa-isip ko kung paano ko siya makakalimutan... sinubukan ko na kasi to dati e. Mga 2 years ago na yata yun. At eto.. Hindi ko masasabing totally na nawala yun dahil lagi ko namang isisantabi yung nararamdaman ko para sa kanya. Asar!!

maghanap kaya ako ng iba...sinubukan ko na un...mahirap! Kahit na yung isang sobrang binigay na ang lahat sumagot lang ako ng "oo".. Hindi ko napag bigyan. Hindi ko nga alam kung dahil sa kanya kung bakit "hindi" ang na isagot ko sa isang yun e... Haiiz. Gag* lang talaga.

Kung baga, nahulog ako sa kanya dahil siya ay siya...malas ko nalang dahil mukang kapatid na babae lang ang turing nya sakin. Hahahaha.. Natatawa na tuloy ako sa sarili ko ngayon!! Medyo matapang na kasi akong mag-post ng ganitong klase.

Nangangarap lang siguro ako na sana isang araw magkaroon sya ng curiosity na bisitahin ang blog ko. At mawindang na lang siya sa mababasa nya.

Parang ung sa "head over heels,"
"do you believe in love at first sight?"

nah.. but i...
 
"i believe in taking a deeper look"

at ganun na nga...once nahulog ka na kasi...masakit kapag walang sumalo sa 'yo...mahirap nang tumayo...

unless may makakakita sa 'yo at siya ang tutulong sa iyo na bumangon ulit...pero kadalasan...

mag-isa nating kailangang harapin ang katotohanang...

anino lang tayo ng mga taong dumadaan...di napapansin...

pero kung dumating nga ang araw na matapatan tayo ng liwanag at makita tayo...

sino ang taong makakakita sa atin?

maraming taong nag-iisa at nagdurusa na nagtanong na niyan...

pinalabo ko lang...

pero eto pa rin ako...martyr ngang talaga...

alam ko naman na hindi niya ako makikita...dahil sa kanya...anino lang din ako...

pero sa ngayon...kahit hindi na ako sikatan ng liwanag ng araw...

mananatili pa rin akong ANINO NIYA...

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haha.. tawa! ang Musshy kasi ng post ko e.. Sabi nga ni Biloc :)

Q: Were you surprised last night? And how did you feel when it sank in?
A: I kind of felt like I was going home last night, not to be, like, all negative or anything, because I'm really not that kind of person. I just felt that a lot more when Dolly sang, 'Oh, I'm going home,' but its OK. All of us have to go home sometime. There's only one winner.